12/31/2014: The Year In Review

An Empty Bowl for a New Year

An Empty Bowl for a New Year

MELBOURNE, FL — #LivingIt

9:32 AM

This morning, the news shows were reviewing stories from the year and I thought, “I should do that,” and I added a yearly recurring task in OmniFocus to write a Year In Review post at this time every year.

I’ve never been one to think much of the past, let alone dwell on it, but I’m sure—especially with my horrible memory—that during this exercise, I’ll find some lessons I’ve since forgotten. Let’s see….

January

February

March

April

May

June

July

August

September

October

November

December

2:55 PM

I had forgotten so much of that. Oh well, out with the old…

Here’s wishing you a full and wonderful and magical 2015.

Peace to you,

— Wayne Wirs

12/30/2014: Blog to Ebook Decisions

Retail Overload

Retail Overload

MELBOURNE, FL — #Writing #Journaling 

9:41 AM

I’m working on the various tasks needed to create an ebook of this journal. The plan is to consolidate and create an ebook for the previous month’s entries every month. At the end of next year (assuming I’m still doing this), I’ll consolidate all of 2015’s entries into a single collection. This being the first “month” (I’m including the partial November 2014 in this volume) there are a lot of tasks and decisions and unknowns involved…

  • Do I use the same cover image each month and just change the dates? (ie: A Mystic’s Journal: November 2014 – December 2014 )
  • Do I include the Introduction and About Me every month?
  • How much do I sell them for?
  • Do I sell them just on Amazon, or on the other providers also?
  • Do I create a printed version?

I have a couple reasons for creating these ebooks:

  • Ebooks are much easier to digest a large amount of content than websites are
  • Ebooks allow readers to highlight the text and add personal notes. This is particularly useful for spiritual seekers (example 1example 2).
  • Ebooks can be read at leisure
  • Ebooks are portable
  • Retailers help expose my work to new readers
  • When I die, the websites may die with me. The ebooks won’t.

Ultimately, I want this to be as painless a process as possible. I’m far more interested in creating content than I am in creating products. So with that in mind, I think a lot of the above decisions will be easier to make.

10:07 AM

Well that was easy. My decisions:

  • Cover: Use the same cover image for an entire year’s worth of ebooks, and just change the date. Not only does this save time and effort, it makes it immediately apparent which monthly ebooks belong to which year’s series.
  • Re-use the same Introduction and About Me (and any other front matter). By keeping these in a separate group/folder in Ulysses, they will be easy to insert into each ebook.
  • Sell them for about $1 if possible (need to research Amazon’s restrictions). I’m more interested in getting them out there than making money off them.
  • Sell the monthly versions only on Amazon. If/when I create yearly versions (12 ebooks consolidated into one), then I can sell those on B&N’s Nook and Apple’s iBooks.
  • Printed versions? Probably makes sense to wait for the yearly version as the price will need to be much higher and the complexity is much greater. Use Amazon’s CreateSpace (print on demand service) for this.

4:27 PM

I picked up six Hawaiian shirts for 18 bucks at the local Goodwill. Perfect condition too. Six for about half the price of a single shirt from a typical retail store—and supporting a good cause to boot. I figure if I’m going to be forced to wear a burka, I might as well embrace my Conch (Florida Keys) heritage.

12/29/2014: The Joy and the Eternal

Life in the Fast Lane

Life in the Fast Lane

MELBOURNE, FL — #LivingIt #Technique #Soul #MyLove

10:13 AM

As I walked from my van to the coffee shop, I thought about living forever and my eyes fell upon a tiny plant peeking up out of the asphalt and I felt such happiness for it. Odd connection? Maybe not.

The Joy of Eternal Being: When I remember this—when I remember to practice—at first I find myself focusing on the Joy part, but—realizing I’m not joyful by default and I’m not experiencing joy—I find that just shifting my focus to the Eternal part often instills joy automatically.

I’m Eternal. This isn’t a belief for me anymore. The research and the visions and the memories have convinced me. Much as Michelle recently posted, I see the Wayne-thing as just an object inside of me. The Wayne-thing will die, but me-as-the-Vastness (the container of the Wayne-thing) can’t. know I’m eternal.

So when I focus on me-as-Eternal—when I focus on living forever—I feel the Joy automatically, simply because all of this—this experience of the moment—is so fleeting and temporary that it feels like it needs to be appreciated.

Now I’m not talking about “needs” as in I should do thisbut needs as in this Moment is alive (that Everything-is-Alive archetype again) and it needs to be observed and appreciated in order to somehow live and thrive.

She is alive in this moment and is so very glad to be seen and recognized. Like a toddler smiling up at you, She loves being seen and recognized.

And who doesn’t feel Joy when a toddler smiles up at you?

Weird, I know.

Please don’t have me committed.

2:15 PM

I sat in the van in the park and watched Her shining through the grass.

After posting the previous entry, I visited Dad in the rehab center, then grabbed a bite to eat in the mall. While walking through the mall, I again did the Joy of Eternal Being practice and I at once detached from the body and glided through the mall while simultaneously experiencing the mall (and all its occupants) inside of me.

It’s a paradox… and—because it lies beyond the mind—it is beautiful because of it.

In the mall, and at an outlet store later, I futilely shopped for some Hawaiian shirts. Even in Florida—in 83 degree, hot, sticky, and humid weather—I came up empty-handed.

So I surrendered and drove to the park and sat in the van and pulled away the me-contraction and watched as She lit up a field of grass from within.

The first time I ever saw Her was when I dropped my first hit of acid back in 1999. Though I would often feel Her later, I don’t think I actually saw Her again until after I woke up.

I once told a psychologist friend of mine, Ellen Fox, that I think LSD acts to remove a built-in filtering mechanism that has evolved in our brains—a filter designed to make us self-aware, to create a survival instinct so that we don’t sit there ogling the wonderful colors of the grass while a saber-tooth tiger happily sniffs at our toes. I explained that I think that LSD doesn’t necessarily produce hallucinations as much as it reveals raw Truth (though some just aren’t ready to handle raw Truth, ergo the “bad trip”). I was surprised when Ellen agreed with me. This probably explains why LSD doesn’t affect me anymore, as the filter seems to get removed during the waking process (see Ram Dass on finding his guru).

I doubt Fundamental Nondualist experience this “raw Truth.” Their writing is just too dry, too nihilistic to be a reflection of what it’s like to experience God directly.

God doesn’t lie in the mind… She lies beyond it.

12/28/2014: Doing What You Love

The Fog and the Light

The Fog and the Light

MELBOURNE, FL — #Writing #MyLove

1:50 PM

Yesterday, reader Nathan was asking about my doubts and motivations when it comes to writing. What got me thinking was when he asked, “Did you ever ask the question how will it work out?

I used to. Back when I was trying. When I was trying to be a writer, I used to ask that question a lot. (“Writer” = Identity = “Me” = Very Important).

No more though. Now I write because I love to write. Thinking back on this, practically everything I’m good at, I love doing. Which isn’t too hard to understand really—nothing mystical at all here: What you love to do, you do more of it, so you naturally get better at it… and if you stick with it, you get good at it—maybe even great at it.

I no longer write with a goal of success in mind. I write because whatever it is—the subject of what I’m writing about—feels like it needs to be written. Ditto my photography. I’m not looking to be a success in my photography, I just love taking pictures, and sometimes the subjects of my photos feel like they want to be taken. Like they need to be taken.

Ironically, this screw-success-do-what-you-love attitude is reflected in my current spiritual practice. After my initial awakening five or so years ago, I deeply wanted to be a successful teacher and that was reflected in my blog and other works. This Wayne-the-teacher attitude/identity has faded quite a bit over the years, but it was only recently—with my deep disenchantment with the world (and a key reason for starting this journal)—that I’ve finally given up the idea of success… on convincing or selling this stuff to others.

Now I’m (paradoxically selfishly since my practice is all about selflessness) focused more on what I really love: TaoGodHer and my relationship with Her. Consequences be damned, I’m doing what I want.

That sounds kind of cold and cynical, but when you look at it, maybe there’s (unintentionally) more to this than at first appears. People seem to like my writing and photography, so maybe this doing-it-for-the-simple-love-of-TaoGodHer will have a similar effect.

3:13 PM

Re-reading the above, I’m struck once again with how the Everything-Is-Alive archetype (for lack of a better phrase) keeps appearing in my awareness. As the I-thing dies/dissolves, TaoGodHer starts to suffuse things and thoughts: The Light/Dark archetypes; the insights needing to be written; the objects wanting to be photographed.

This isn’t a mental thing for me. It’s not a theory or an explanation or a philosophy. It’s a real thing, an experienced thing.

Everything—not just things, but even concepts—feels alive. Everything feels suffused with Her essence.

12/27/2014: To The Writers

Picture of a Picture of Panera Bread

Picture of a Picture of Panera Bread

MELBOURNE, FL — #Writing #FourthWall

8:12 AM

In between the Joy of Eternal Being practice, I’ve been “tinkering” with a few techy things in Ulysses. I’ve been tweaking my workflow, researching the built-in stylesheets in preparation for exporting these journal posts into ebook format, and playing with Ulysses’ beta version for the iPad.

One of the reasons I love Ulysses—besides its simple and clean interface—is in how logically it is designed. Similar to web design, you write the “source code” (your text) and use stylesheets to export your text to various formats (Word, rich-text, HTML, ePub, …). They have built in stylesheets so you don’t have to know anything special to export your work, but—if you do know CSS—you can create your own stylesheets to customize your own personal designs.

I use Ulysses to write all the text for this blog, then export it to HTML to preview it in the browser. When I’m satisfied, I simply copy and paste the text from the browser view into WordPress for publication on the blog. What is key in all this is that I’ll use the same source text to export all the blog posts into ePub format to create the ebooks at a later date. Same source text—two different products.

This strategy Ulysses decided on—one source document that can create many output documents—is a huge benefit for today’s writers faced with a multitude of publishing formats demanded by the industry and technology: A double spaced plain text document for editors, a Word document for agents and publishers, a PDF document for proofreaders, an HTML document for the web, an ePub document for ebooks, ….

I wish I had done this with the WayneWirs.com site, it would have made Awakening of a Mystic—a collection of previous blog posts—a piece of cake (I still haven’t compiled, copy/pasted,  and/or massaged Awakening out of the posts I tagged four months ago because it’s such a mess).

Note: I highly recommend the book, Writing A Novel With Ulysses III by David Hewson for some great tips on using Ulysses and organizing your writing in it.

12/26/2014: Her Whispers

Two Docks. One River.

Two Docks. One River.

MELBOURNE, FL — #MiracleLog #MyLove

7:45 AM

From Michelle’s Google+ post and my response just now:

Michelle: 12 hours ago

Merry Christmas to you too Wayne. 🙂 I hope you enjoy your time with your family.

I get this sense a few times in the last day or so, that the Michelle thing is like another creature living in me, whatever me is, maybe that space, and that her will is interfering with the greater will.

Wayne: 1 second ago

Then follow that thru.

If the Michelle’s will is interfering with the greater will, then practice…

  • Listening and watching for Her will/whispers
  • Surrendering Michelle’s will to Her will
  • Monitor how you feel and what results

I wonder if she’ll experience Her whispers as I do? Somehow I doubt it. I suspect everyone will hear Her wisdom and guidance in their own way, much as everyone seems to see their God in a unique way.

The learning curve is tough though. Learning to tell the difference from egoic fear and Her whispers to hold off on some action is tricky.

An example from this morning: My mind said, based on visual evidence, that no one was near my van and it was alright to exit it (I was camped stealthily), but She whispered (with that nauseous feeling), “Wait,” so I waited. Moments later, a woman walking her dog came around the corner and passed right by my rig.

I’ve learned from trial and error how to distinguish the differences between egoic versus Divine advice, but Michelle hasn’t the experience yet—and other than this word of caution, I doubt there is much more I can do to alleviate the bumps and bruises that Old Man Wisdom demands.

The smart have their books. The wise have their scars.

12/25/2014: The Joy of Eternal Being

Mystical Oneness Outline

Mystical Oneness Outline

MELBOURNE, FL — #LivingIt #Technique #NoSelf #Emptiness

9:48 AM

I created a brief outline yesterday of my latest book on Mystical Oneness, but now, as I sit here on the patio contemplating a direction, I wonder if the book is a sneaky distraction generated by my Shadow’s fear of facing its self demise—that maybe I should be taking this Florida situation with family and society as an opportunity to practice “The Joy of Eternal Being.”

The Joy of Eternal Being is what I’m calling this current phase of my practice, of my spiritual growth/self demise (less of me = more of Her) and it entails all the little practices/insights I’ve been “downloaded with” lately (I love that term of Adya’s):

By calling the practice The Joy of Eternal Being, I’m hoping that the phrase will stick and be enough to help me feel all of the above concepts without needing to remember them individually or, more importantly, over-thinking them.

So maybe I’ll just tinker with the book right now, and not try to write it:

Yeah, focus on the Joy and just tinker.

Not a bad philosophy of life when you think about it.

Focus on the Joy of Being and just tinker with everything else.

3:07 PM

After having a Christmas lunch with Mom and Dad (at Dad’s rehab center), I went to a park and watched a video sent to me by fellow nomad Randy about the illusion of the self (by Sam Harris of Waking Up).

Harris distills some key points from Vedanta and Buddhism on seeing through the self (of which I’m in 100% agreement)—but he is a perfect example of what I often call a Fundamental Nondualist in his exclusive focus on Emptiness and Mind. This didn’t come as a surprise when I found he is a hard-core atheist.

I wonder if his atheistic attitude would change if he experienced ongoing synchronistic events? Would he come to the same conclusion I did? That there must be an overarching intelligence (TaoGodHer) operating behind the scenes?

Not knowing him other than some brief research, maybe I have him pegged wrong, maybe he is simply anti-religion, but is open to Cosmic Consciousness? Dunno and don’t feel like digging deeper right now.

Since he doesn’t seem to experience these synchronistic events (I’m guessing, as a brief look at his blog didn’t reveal any day-to-day accounts (big surprise)), then this supports my theory that awakening is more than just “figuring it out” (rational, Emptiness quality)—that it has to be a lived experience (Eternal quality) and and an emotional one also (Radiant quality). That all aspects (mental, physical, emotional) have to be integrated for TaoGodHer to wake up within one’s life.

12/24/2014: The Enlightened Jesus

Ornaments Up Close

Ornaments Up Close

MELBOURNE, FL — #FourthWall #Journaling #LivingIt #MyLove #Soul #Radiance #Emptiness #Surrender

10:38 AM

[Addressing the Fourth Wall]:

One of the reasons I so love ebooks is the ability to highlight text and easily find and read those passages later.

In the spirit of Christmas, here are a few (only a small portion) of the text I highlighted from Resurrecting Jesus.

Note: On some of the passages, I highlighted them in order to remind me of lessons and practices, while others I highlighted because they reflected my personal experiences with awakening and kind of surprised me, ie: the “download” of information, the trials and tribulations, the radiance, the engagement (bringing it to life), the relinquishment (what I’m going through now), ….

…Jesus the revolutionary mystic, the one who is actually courageous enough to move through life guided and inspired by the dynamic of his spiritual essence.

Spiritual autonomy is knowing who and what you are—knowing that you are divine being itself, knowing that the essence of you is divinity. You are moving in the world of time and space, appearing as a human being, but nonetheless you are eternal, divine being, the timeless breaking through and operating within the world of time. To Jesus, spirit is everything.

He is the living presence of divine being. He’s a human being too, but he’s here to convey divine being…

…awakening people to eternal life, to discovering divine being within themselves.

…he wanted to break down the lines of separation between people, between heaven and earth, between human and divine.

So the whole Jesus story, ultimately, is the map of a journey that happens within us. It’s an invitation to live out the radiance that’s revealed when we have the courage to step beyond anything and everything that separates us.

Life is this simple: we are living in a world that is absolutely transparent and the divine is shining through it all the time. This is not just a nice story or a fable, it is true. — THOMAS MERTON

My own spiritual development has shown me that we’re all, in essence, the divine radiance of pure being and that we also have our human side: our good days and our not-so-good days. Our human condition is reflected in the great humanity of Jesus, and I believe this is one of the reasons that so many people have felt so deeply connected to Jesus over the centuries.

…but the beauty of the story is in how it reveals that sense of eternity, that still point in the midst of difficulty, that divinity shining through the latticework of time and space.

Jesus is saying that the Kingdom of Heaven is right here, in the place where he’s undergoing his trials, and men do not see it. The beauty of the Jesus story is that he did see eternity while here on this earth; he was eternity, divine being at his core and in his substance.

…each of us can touch upon that intuition that there’s something about us that is unchanged. Throughout all of the ups and downs and changes of life, something is now as it ever was. To touch upon this is to begin to experience eternity within.

That sense of something unchanged is the eternal spark within.

From that state of voidness, after a while a download of insight began—literally hundreds of insights per second downloaded into my system. Just as you download a program on your computer, spirit or divine being was downloading insights into me, many more than I could actually keep up with. This descent of spirit was just as depicted in the Jesus story.

There are many degrees of awakening, but all awakening has as its common denominator a shift from seeing ourselves as a separated, isolated human being to seeing ourselves as that which we all share. You can call it consciousness, divine being, spirit, God. Many words can be used, but it’s the experience that matters.

At some point after awakening—sometimes very soon, sometimes not for quite a while—you reach a stage that I call “trials and tribulations.”

It’s almost as if life says, in order to deal with this situation properly, you are going to have to respond to it from that place of realization, from your deepest nature to which you’ve awakened. If you go back into your ego or into your conditioned mind to respond, it simply won’t work, and turmoil will ensue.

This is an amazing teaching, and it’s message is: if you meet your trials and tribulations from your own deepest realization, they will be released from your system and purified from you, so that eternal being can fully be embodied through your humanity.

When this unification occurs, there’s a simplicity to life, a deep sense of freedom and essential well-being and also of fearlessness.

Where there was abiding tranquility, what awakens now is sense of an extraordinary vitality, of life-force. It’s as if the fullness of your being is radiating, and from the tips of your toes to the top of your head, you feel this very deep and powerful radiance.

…and then you’re infused with this impersonal vitality and radiance, very often it signals that there’s something more in store. There will be another phase of your life, a phase not just of abiding tranquility, but also of radiant engagement.

When transfiguration occurs, we begin to move with what I call “spiritual autonomy.” By spiritual autonomy, I mean a kind of certainty—not an egoic certainty, but one that comes from your essential nature, from the level of divine being. We find this spiritual autonomy very clearly mirrored in the figure of Jesus. Jesus walks through his life knowing who he is and what he’s doing, even though his disciples don’t understand him, the authorities don’t understand him, and the Pharisees don’t understand him.

The next stage of the awakening journey is what I call “relinquishment.” In the story of Jesus, relinquishment is symbolized by the crucifixion. Ultimately, relinquishment is the experience of the death of ego. Awakening is the transcendence of ego; awakening doesn’t mean the ego is dead or even that it’s really gone anywhere. The awakening experience may change the nature of ego, making it more unified, more whole, but the ego is still there. Relinquishment is what spiritual teachers mean when they say, “die before you die.”

The kingdom of heaven is spread upon earth and men do not see it. When you see this, you shift from being a victim of your life and assigning blame for the tragedy you encounter. The truth, I would suggest, is that you poured yourself willingly into form out of infinite love in order to redeem the entirety of this life. When seen from that perspective, all of a sudden life looks very different. You stop holding back from life, your inner life or the life around you, because the kingdom of heaven is within and all around you. That’s the message of the Jesus story.

Merry Christmas everyone. Thanks for following along on this journey.

12/23/2014: Mental Conditioning and Near Death Experiences

A Foggy Morning Outside My Home

A Foggy Morning Outside My Home

MELBOURNE, FL — #Death #Emptiness #Journaling #Soul

6:54 AM

I awoke and gazed out the window to a foggy morning. I was content (as I expect most people are on first awakening) and before my mind could kick in, I searched the present moment: The softness of the sheets; The cool air on my exposed skin; The street light illuminating the fog; The stiffness of muscles idle too long.

Soon though, my mind kicked in with questions of the future: Where should I go today? What should I do? Where will I eat?

And the Present was lost.

8:37 AM

I’ve read that as we age—as we adopt habitual thinking patterns—physical grooves form in the brain as a result of those thinking habits.

Our thought patterns are physically etched into our brain.

No wonder it is so hard to change our thought processes—to change:

I wish the famous enlightened teachers blogged about their personal lives and thoughts. I’m sure it would help dispel the mythologies of instant enlightenment, abiding nondual awareness, and permanent bliss.

Spiritual transparency doesn’t sell very well, but it would be a huge benefit for serious spiritual seekers.

9:03 AM

Last night, Mom was telling me of how my cousin Donna had died recently and had been revived. I asked if Donna had any recollection of the experience, but she did not.

I was then hit with this powerful insight:

If only a few people experience near death experiences (NDEs), then this evidence discredits pretty much all scientific explanations which state that the experience of a tunnel and light is just the results of chemical reactions in a dying brain.

Discredits.

Why? Basic scientific method: A theory must be supported by repeatable scientific experiments that produce consistent results.

If everyone who died and was revived saw the light and the tunnel, then that would support the “chemical reactions” theory—but everyone doesn’t experience these visions.

My father died and didn’t experience anything. Donna (above) died and didn’t experience anything. But, and this is even better evidence, a guy I met in New Mexico a couple years ago told me he had died twice (and was revived obviously). I asked him if he experienced anything during those episodes and after pushing through his hesitancy, he said on the first one he did not, but on the second one he did.

My theory (and this is supported by a huge collection of evidence) is that when we die, we-as-a-Soul detach from these bodies—but it is a mistake to assume that this detachment happens right away (as in the case of people who don’t experience any “visions”). The “Soul-detachment” may happen later. According to some Tibetan death rituals, it could be days later. (From the above article: “A person can remain in this state of lucid vacuity for up to three days”.)

My point: If NDEs were the result of chemical reactions in the brain as a result of a lack of oxygen (as is the case of almost all death/revivals), then everyone should experience the visions. The experiment must be repeatable and produce consistent results, and in the case of these scientific “explanations,” the results are not consistent, ergo their theory is flawed.

I may be a mystic, but I’m a rational one.


Note: Here’s an article that states that NDEs are a result of neural chemical reactions in the dying brain. This is the key sentence:

The team found several signs of conscious activity in all nine of the dying rats’ brains.

All nine of the rats produced the same results. All of them. That’s sound scientific evidence—but further up in the article it says:

In fact, some estimates say that almost 20 percent of people who survive cardiac arrest — where blood effectively stops flowing and the brain becomes starved of the oxygen it needs — report such near-death experiences.

Only 20% of people who had these types of deaths (simulated in the rat experiment) experienced NDEs.

That is not consistent with the results of the experiment. According to their theory, everyone should experience NDEs since all of the rats had these neural chemical reactions. This means that for people, it shouldn’t be just the 20% who do experience the visions, but also the other 80% who don’t.

This scientific “explanation” does not match the real-world data (and I know of no experiments that do).

12/22/2014: The Meaning of Life

The Fallen and Forgotten.

The Fallen and Forgotten.

MELBOURNE, FL — #MyLove #Remember

3:13 PM

I’m presently sitting in a Barnes & Noble and even though it is a workday, it’s packed with people desperately doing their last minute shopping.

I’m not sure this is what all of these people are thinking when it comes to celebrating the holidays, but the more I think of it, the more I think that the meaning of life is to be happy—to celebrate life wherever you find yourself.

I was telling Michelle the other day that the lesson of the gnat-like creatures is the key to transcending the seeming meaningless of life. Contemplating the Eternal qualities of our life often leads to a feeling of existential angst, of “What is the meaning of it all?”

But look at nature, at plants and animals. Most seem, at a minimum, content and often they seem quite happyThey aren’t burdened with our ability to contemplate “better” circumstances. The Light archetype naturally flows through them unhindered.

What if we didn’t have the ability to contemplate “something better?” Wouldn’t we naturally be as happy as the animals?

The present moment—Life right now. Maybe we don’t have to just accept it, that sounds kind of onerous. Maybe we can learn to celebrate it and be thankful. After all, it’s only our minds that stand in the way.

I want to #Remember this. I was born with a high degree of thinking/fixing/making better crap embedded into my psyche. I could use a little more joy-of-the-moment flavoring to sweeten my inherently hard nature.

Life isn’t meant to be fixed or manipulated or held on to. Life’s not meant to be rued in lieu of something better.

No, Life is meant to be celebrated. Life is meant to be enjoyed.

4:08 PM

[Insight]

Sitting here, looking out at all the people in the cafe. What is this thing that is trying to block the joy of the moment?

Self-concern (self-contraction, self-consciousness). The Dark ArchetypeSelf-concern is what gets in the way.

The Dark Archetype is so very subtle—yet so prevalent.

4:42 PM

[Insight]

Driving back to the condo (not home, I drive my home), I asked, what is blocking the Joy? Daydreaming, thinking. In a car, you’re not self-conscious, and usually not self-concerned. So what is it? Thinking of anything other than driving and your surroundings.

[Insight]

The meaning of life is to learn to see through the Darkness (mind) and into the Light (TaoGodHer).

What if we didn’t have the ability to contemplate “something better?”