December 14, 2014

Blogging While Burning DVDs

Blogging While Burning DVDs

MELBOURNE, FL #VanDwelling #Radiance #NoSelf … and spiritual community and rational mysticism.

9:37 AM

I’m taking the day “mostly off” from family obligations, though I will be having dinner with Mom later. I do think that a life filled with social contact is not conducive to spiritual growth and development: Too many distractions; too many beliefs by others pushed upon us as truths; too much energy spent defending and discussing our beliefs; too much conflict; too much social preparation; too much confusionNone of these are factors while in solitude.

Still, social contact is important for the application (lived aspect) and shoring up of our spiritual development.

One of the things that some full-time RV’ers do when they hang out together is to place a flag outside their rig to indicate to others if—at the moment—they are open to socializing or not.

I think I’d do something similar if I were to hold spiritual retreats or start a spiritual community/commune. Just like in isolation, there wouldn’t be any set schedule or classes. No fixed periods of silence or meditation. Everyone is free to do what they want but must respect each other’s “in solitude flag” (ie: wearing a yellow shirt or something). This way people can still reap the benefits of solitude (meditation, contemplation, communion with nature, …) AND the benefits of a group of like-minded seekers (safety concerns, dialog, shared meals and resources, …).

Maybe a morning or evening, come-if-you-want community discussion/sharing/gathering to act as an anchor (something many communal RV-er’s also do).

1:26 PM

In Resurrecting Jesus, Adya describes self as…

…the act of consciousness turning back upon itself and reflecting within. That self-reflection is what self is. Self is not a thing; it’s literally the act of consciousness turning back and looking within.

And then…

…by the time self begins to fall away, your sense of self is radiant.

One of the reason I am drawn to exploring spirituality first hand and finding out experientially (rather than just reading about it) is to develop a deep sense of knowing (not just belief). For years I’ve been describing Radiance as an outward flowing Love and Light and the me-thing as an inward flowing contraction.

When I run across evidence—previously unknown to me—that supports my findings, it adds an incredible feeling of truth to my theories and experiences. I’m not talking about truth to convince my readersbut truth to convince and ease any doubts inside of meUnexpected evidence that I stumble across (mysteriously often I might add), helps these experiences go from feeling like belief and theories into something that feels more like fact and truth.

Adya’s description of self—though he uses different terminology—is practically identical to my experiences (which I’ve documented for years) of outward flowing Radiance and the inward flowing contraction of the me-thing.

Though we’ve come at it from two different directions and backgrounds, we’ve arrived at the same conclusions. This is powerful evidence.

If you’re going to be a mystic, be a rational one.

PS: What I find particularly useful about his description of self is that he focuses on it as a movement rather than (as I am wont to do) as a entity. Focusing on self as a movement helps de-personalize it.

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2 thoughts on “December 14, 2014

  1. Wayne I agree that social contact is important for the application of expressing consciousness itself. After all, if there’s no real “i”, then everyone else, esp family, are just reflected aspects of “ourselves”. Better learn to recognize one’s fragmented selves, haha.
    Isn’t that the primary point of spiritual development to share and help others. How significant can one’s own journey be if we’re all just practicing bliss, samadhi and enlightenment for one’s self only? Doesn’t that path kinda defeats of the purpose? I’m sure we need the world as much as the world needs us. Samsara IS Nirvana, as the saying goes.
    Of course it’s much easier when everyone around you are “awakened”, then we’re just holding space for each other. But u’ll be surprised just being there with “difficult” people helps with self understanding, empathy, compassion. Just listening without reacting, without judgement, holding one’s tongue whether right or wrong, agree or disagree is healing, unifying. Besides, u can’t get better experiences than when u’r in the trenches. 😉
    Buddha was a logical rational mystic, one must test his theories and beliefs every single waking moment and challenge them within the trials of life. Otherwise it’s just dead dogma.
    Have a blessed holiday season Wayne, thanks for sharing your experiences with us.♥

  2. Wayne, first I’d like to say that I love the format and content of your new blog. Your first paragraph about too involved a social life not being conducive to spiritual growth resonates strongly with me. I read a book about a guy named Neill Ansell who lived alone for five years in an isolated cottage in Wales, with no electricity or running water. He writes: ” You might think that such protracted solitude would lead to introspection, to self-examination, to a growing self-awareness. But not for me. What happened to me was that I began to forget myself, my focus shifted almost entirely outwards to the natural world outside my window. It was as if we gain our sense of self from our interaction with other people; from the reflection of ourselves we see in the eyes of another. Alone, there was no need for identity, for self-definition.”
    And further on, he writes that by the third year, “I had become an absence, a void. I had disappeared from my own story.”
    Just thought I’d share this. I had a similar though far less intense experience. After living for six months in a tiny hamlet of four houses, I moved back to town. “I” had been pretty ethereal up in the hills. Back in town “I” solidified and hardened.

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