Enjoy Your Self

Gazing Toward The Lake

Gazing Toward The Lake

Heron Lake SP, NM — #MiracleLog #BATGAP #Remember

June 24, 2015 8:09 AM

“Enjoy yourself,” She whispered in my ear.

“Enjoy your capital-S Self,” I realized later.

I was concerned that when I met Amma, I’d have nothing to report. Though my intention was to open and expand into the Vastness while accepting Amma’s embrace, I wondered what I’d tell my readers if nothing happened.

But now, sitting in Serenity and gazing out over the lake, I realize I’m still in awe of how everything has worked out so perfectly, how everything I sought has miraculously appeared: … Read more…

God Incarnate (and Amma)

Waiting For A Miracle

Waiting For A Miracle

ESPANOLA, NM — #Encounters #Intimate #MiracleLog #MyLove #Remember

June 20, 2015 5:09 PM

An absolutely amazing thing happened to me today. I went to see Amma.

But that’s not the amazing part.

This morning, I broke camp and put Leona Lewis’ I See You on repeat (as I often do when I want to drive in God) and headed down to see Amma. Normally I listen to this song as if I am singing the words to TaoGodHerbut this time, I imagined it as if it were TaoGodHer singing the words to me. Wonderful! Beautiful! Suddenly the boundaries between She and I became almost ethereal.

I don’t know if it was listening to the song in this new way, or the insight into the Mystic’s Dilemma I had earlier this week, or what it was, but something amazing happened six hours later. … Read more…

The Signs Point East

On The Water's Edge

On The Water’s Edge

BLUEWATER SP, NM — #BATGAP #MiracleLog #VanDwelling

June 15, 2015 5:51 PM

I broke camp this morning and—unusual for me—hopped onto the interstate. I try to avoid interstates—they tend to be boring and dull—but there aren’t many other roads from Flagstaff to Santa Fe, at least without going way out of your way.

In the BATGAP interview, I was asked by a viewer whether one could remain dissolved in Her 24/7. I responded that I certainly couldn’t but that I’d love to hear about anyone who could. Rick then pointed over his shoulder at a photo of Amma and he said she does, and synchronistically she was going to be in Santa Fe in a month. He suggested I stop by and “get a hug.”

The “coincidence” that she was mentioned in the interview, her photo was sitting there looking over his shoulder the entire time, and that she just happened to be touring nearby around the time I was planning on heading up that way toward Colorado, seemed like too much of a sign to ignore.

I can take a hint.

And I like hugs.

The Gift Of Peace

A Little Peace

A Little Peace

FLAGSTAFF, AZ — #Encounters #Intimate #MiracleLog

June 6, 2015 12:10 PM

I had a one-on-one consult this morning with Paul from France. Without exception, when someone comes to me for spiritual advice and we have an actual talk (versus email, posts, comments, etc.), I’m left with a feeling of expansion and ease and peace. I’m left with a serene sense of connection to Her.

After the call, I stepped out of the van to stretch and—even though I’m out in the middle of a huge forest—found a tiny plastic peace symbol sitting on the ground directly in front of me, washed clean from last night’s rain.

“Peace,” She said. “You keep doing what you’re doing. I love you.”

Depersonalizing Thoughts

A Forgotten Photo Found In My Phone For A Book I Had Forgotten To Buy

A Forgotten Photo Found In My Phone For A Book I Had Forgotten To Buy

N of STRAWBERRY, AZ — #BATGAP #FourthWall #MiracleLog #Technique

June 1, 2015 11:25 AM

I woke, rolled out of bed, made some coffee, bathed, took care of the scheduled monthly tasks, then hopped into the driver’s seat and drove off to parts unknown. With a direction in mind, but no destination, I drifted westward until I saw a forest road that felt right, turned down it and bumped along while taking turns based solely on intuition rather than maps or mind. I stumbled upon a nice shady camp, parked, and took a walk.

Just as I finished typing the above, the mysterious pickup truck drove by, indicating I should now have the camp to myself for as long as I like (probably only a day or two). … Read more…

The Making Of Skillful Sailors

Exploring The Edges

Exploring The Edges

RIM ROAD, AZ — #BATGAP #Emptiness #FourthWall #Intimate #MiracleLog #Radiance #Soul #Technique

May 31, 2015 8:28 AM

I awoke last night with the thought, “Why don’t people share my work?” Like a fool, I had glanced at the Batgap home page before I went to bed and saw my interview had a grand total of six Facebook shares. Even taking into account only being listed for a week, I figured that if people liked my interview as much as the previous guest, I should have at least 25.

Funny how the mind works in the middle of the night. … Read more…

The Pain Of The Collective Consciousness

What Flowers Look Like Through Tears

What Flowers Look Like Through Tears

RIM ROAD, AZ — #BATGAP #Encounters #FourthWall #Intimate #MiracleLog #Radiance

May 30, 2015 10:38 AM

On our last day together, Michelle said to me, “Wouldn’t it be neat if that happened during your BATGAP interview?”

“I dunno..,” I said uncertainly, hunched over and wiping the tears from my eyes.

That” was the collective pain of all the women of the world who have ever been objectified. “That” was what Michelle called, me accessing the Collective Consciousness.

It’s an absolutely wonderful experience… and it sucks horribly. … Read more…

Haters And Caregivers

Living on the Edge (of the Mogollon Rim)

Living on the Edge (of the Mogollon Rim)

RIM ROAD, AZ — #BATGAP #Emptiness #FourthWall #MiracleLog

May 28, 2015 7:30 AM

As to be expected, the attention from the BATGAP interview has brought with it the ire of the haters. Anonymous people calling me names, making fun of the way I look, the way I live, criticizing things I said half a decade ago… even my photography (now that’s just mean). Synchronistically (of course), Trey Ratcliff—one of only about a dozen bloggers I follow and who has a great saying about haters—recently put out a video where around the 10:00 minute mark talks about if you consistently do what you love, then the right people will show up. Then, this morning (more synchronicity (are you seeing the pattern here?)) Seth Godin posts about haters and that we should not take their names down, but take the names of those who are fans, supporters, and sneezers (people who share your work).

Feed the lovers, not the haters.

So to all you who are “lovers”, who are appreciative and share my stuff—and I know how difficult it is to share my work since it is so different than most nondual teachings—I say from the bottom of my heart, Thank-you. I love you.

And on the note of “so different than most nondual teachings,” I have some further thoughts about what I said in the interview about Eckhart Tolle and the need for a caregiver.Read more…

Garble. Garble. Garble.

The Interview Site

The Interview Site

NEAR ALPINE, AZ — #Encounters #FourthWall #LivingIt #MiracleLog #BATGAP

May 23, 2015 3:47 PM

After the BATGAP interview, I closed my laptop and stepped outside and stood in the sun and stretched. I thought about the events that conspired against me this morning prior to the interview and smiled with gratitude. She was messing with me, I’m sure—testing my faith, trying to shake me up. … Read more…

More Unexpected Help When I Needed It

Layers Revealed

Layers Revealed

NEAR ALPINE, AZ — #Emptiness #MiracleLog #BATGAP

May 20, 2015 9:20 AM

A few days ago, Rob at realization.org emailed to tell me that my video How I Awoke To Enlightenment had been selected for their Video of the Day. After watching the video (I was such a so-sure-of-myself noob back then), I found the answer (of course) to a question that had been bothering me for a few days now: Why do I feel so different than the majority of today’s nondual teachers?Read more…