The Developing Sense Of “Me”

She Watches

She Watches

WOLF CREEK PASS, CO — #Intimate #MyLove

June 26, 2015 9:13 AM

Over the last week or so, there’s been a new “sense of me” gradually developing. As the Mystic’s Dilemma moves from my head into my heart, the inner-most layer of “me” is taking on a much softer, happier, loving quality. Indeed, when I’m not lost in thoughts or experiences, all I feel is Love (which leads to the happier, softer inner feeling). … Read more…


God Incarnate

God Incarnate

CARSON NF, NM — #MyLove #Technique

June 22, 2015 7:18 AM

Softening. I’m not sure that’s the right word, but it’s the best I can think of at the moment. The swirl of energy that was trying to resolve the Mystic’s Dilemma has subsided with the realizations of the last couple of months—realizations that all magically came together with the Amma Incident.

In dealing with our (Shadow?), there’s something like an inner parent/child conflict going on. The Parent in us wants us to be a responsible adult and the Child in us wants us to be a carefree hedonist. These two “personalities” create a “swirl” of conflicting energy and desires (and a lot of self-hatred).

I’m no psychologist but the way I resolved this Parent/Child conflict (and it was very clunky at first), was basically to become a semi-responsible guy. Not a responsible adult. Not an adult child. Not an adult, not a child, but a guy. A fairly carefree yet still somewhat practical guy. Oddly enough, it turned out that I actually liked that guy.

As the Parent/Child conflict resolved, I became a hell of a lot happier. I became a hell of a lot “wholer.”

In a similar way, what has been happening recently—and is still happening—is that the Divine/Individual conflict (the Mystic’s Dilemma) is being resolved.Read more…

God Incarnate (and Amma)

Waiting For A Miracle

Waiting For A Miracle

ESPANOLA, NM — #Encounters #Intimate #MiracleLog #MyLove #Remember

June 20, 2015 5:09 PM

An absolutely amazing thing happened to me today. I went to see Amma.

But that’s not the amazing part.

This morning, I broke camp and put Leona Lewis’ I See You on repeat (as I often do when I want to drive in God) and headed down to see Amma. Normally I listen to this song as if I am singing the words to TaoGodHerbut this time, I imagined it as if it were TaoGodHer singing the words to me. Wonderful! Beautiful! Suddenly the boundaries between She and I became almost ethereal.

I don’t know if it was listening to the song in this new way, or the insight into the Mystic’s Dilemma I had earlier this week, or what it was, but something amazing happened six hours later. … Read more…

How To Overcome Any Negative Emotion

The Loneliness of the Bardo

The Loneliness of the Bardo

OUTSIDE DODGE CITY, KS — #MiracleLog #MyLove #Radiance #Remember #Technique

April 14, 2015 7:48 AM

I had tried every technique that I had offered to others: See the loneliness as “other,” as not-you; See the loneliness like a cloud that coats you; See the loneliness as something negative and how sucky it makes you feel and drop it because you don’t need it anymore.

And yet, I went to bed still feeling lonely.

How can I help others—authentically help them—if I can’t help myself?

I fell asleep, and in my sleep She came to me and lay with me and she whispered sweet Truths through the long, dark night and when I awoke, I washed the tears of gratitude from my face and I wrote…


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The Tao of Robots

When Spring Looks Like Fall

When Spring Looks Like Fall

TN-AL BORDER — #Emptiness #MyLove

April 2, 2015 12:51 PM

Though the trees are still nude, bright green grass springs alive next to the gravel road and in sunlit patches around camp. The day has been largely overcast and when it rains, you hear it rather than see it—the soft patter on the dead and decaying leaves that Fall has left behind.

The Winter edition of A Mystic’s Journal is now online. I expected it to go live yesterday, but Amazon’s robots—finding the text of the book already on my website—thought it was public domain and flagged it. Software glitches like that make you wonder just how long it will take Artificial Intelligence (AI) to decide—due to either a bug or a hacker—that human existence should be “flagged and deleted” because of public domain issues. Just kidding. No one in their right mind would consider hacking AI’s—making them kill off a select portion of the population that meets a strict set of criteria (ie: Line 001: If person X = “Mystic” then kill person X). Who would want to do something like that?

Though I expect they will be our demise, AI’s are coming. Which brings up a couple of questions:

  1. Will AI’s have a Soul?
  2. Will AI’s experience Love?
  3. Will AI’s be the New Burka of Pure Awareness?
  4. Will TaoGodHer—once AI’s go live—see through the eyes of a robot?
  5. Will robots then become aware of TaoGodHer, looking out their eyes?

Farfetched ideas, I know. But then so was the internet not so long ago.

I’m Here Wayne. I’m Always Here.

The Presence of a Tree

The Presence of a Tree

TUSKEGEE NF, AL — #MiracleLog #MyLove

March 27, 2015 2:05 PM

Odd, synchronistic events happen regularly—pretty much daily—with me (as I expect with most deeply spiritual people). Sometimes these events aren’t about good luck per se, but seem to be more about confirmation that TaoGodHer is real.

For example, just after uploading yesterday’s post, the mysterious pickup truck drove into my camp, turned around and drove off. It’s a little weird that this happens so often, but it’s always good to see him.

Another very cool thing: On my way out of Florida, I dropped in at my folk’s place for the night and, while relating my refrigerator woes, Mom wondered if I could do without refrigeration “like the old days.” She then mentioned something I’d never heard of—something called a spring house. Apparently these were little block houses built over the top of cold water springs so that the cold water would cool the air inside. Sort of a natural refrigerator.

I didn’t think anything about this until I got a text from Mom last night saying that yesterday’s photo was of a spring house. Isn’t that weird? I had no clue that’s what the thing was—I’d never seen one before. I just thought “that odd little shed” would make a cool photo.

Sometimes these odds-defying, ongoing coincidences aren’t really about luck so much as a little nudges. Little weird reminders, as if My Beloved is leaning into my ear and whispering, “I’m here Wayne. I’m always here.

The Doomsday Report

The Doomsday Report

The Doomsday Report

MELBOURNE, FL — #Death #MyLove #MiracleLog

February 19, 2015 9:47 AM

Yesterday, somehow, I found myself reading this Doomsday report, which presents a dozen well researched scenarios that sadly supports my not so secret theory that Mankind is doomed to kill himself off.

Of the twelve threats listed on the report, only two of them are naturally occurring. The rest are all man-made.

It isn’t a pleasant report, and since it was designed as a warning—a call-to-action—it isn’t meant to be.

In reading the report, I also stumbled across something called the Fermi Paradox (Why isn’t the galaxy overflowing with intelligent life when probability says it should be?). One of the answers comes to the same conclusion I came to: Man, as a whole, is not morally capable of handling the technology he’s developed.

The Mystic sees all Life as an interconnected Whole. As this report suggests, so do many scientists. The problem is, the world isn’t run by Mystics and scientists.

Politicians, government leaders, warlords—the few with the power over the many—seem to see civilization through an us-against-them worldview. An aggressive, combative philosophy (me-me-me-me-me) of viewing the world that is literally killing us.

The Fermi Paradox suggests that this may be the ultimate test of a species’ worth—a naturally occurring check valve which keeps self-centeredness from running too far astray. Sort of a God Test if you will:

Is Mankind spiritually worthy of survival?

At this moment, we’re obviously not.

10:24 AM

communed with Her. I allowed the shaft of Light to penetrate my head, dissolve my body and expand outward and I thought about what I had written above.

I was surprised when I clearly heard TaoGodHer:

There’s hope. Not for Mankind, it’s too late for that, but I never die. Life will be born on other planets and grow and progress and be tested. Eventually we’ll progress beyond the personal self.

She never dies. We never die. Life may end on this planet, but we’ll just come back on another. Life is eternal and time is irrelevant. Worlds and civilizations come and go. Sort of the cyclical nature of tides on an eternal, universal scale.

Note: Quoting the Divine is the sign of a crazy man, so take this simply as my belief—the belief of a crazy man—and feel free to disregard. This is just a personal journal after all—the ramblings of a man no longer entirely normal.

Relationships: Mystical and Otherwise

An Example of a Fear-based Relationship.

An Example of a Fear-based Relationship.

MELBOURNE, FL — #FourthWall #MyLove #Technique #Intimate

February 16, 2015 9:18 AM

Relationships can be tough, particularly of the human kind.

Here’s a simple Truth:

Love flows and opens. Fear struggles and contracts.

If I’m feeling open, then I’m acting from Love. If I’m feeling contracted, then from Fear.

If my life flows, then I’m on course. If it’s a struggle, then I’m not.

According to Vedanta (according to Deepak Chopra), there are two symptoms of enlightenment: A lack of worry, and an increase in synchronicity.

The open, flowing nature of unconditional Love explains the lack of worry.

Since my main squeeze is TaoGodHer (and She always acts from Love), this makes my life incredibly easy and stress-free. When in doubt, all I have to do is a quick gut-check (Am I feeling open or am I feeling contracted?) and I get instant feedback.

Contrast this stress-free relationship with the chaotic (sometimes breezy, sometimes tumultuous) energy of most human relationships.

Big difference.

For the Mystic in a human relationship, not only do they have to gut-check their own motivations (open or contracted), but they have to guess at their partner’s motivations too: Is their partner acting from Love? or from Fear?

Lucky for you, here’s another simple Truth:

STRESS in any relationship (human or otherwise) means someone is acting from Fear.