Reading Adya’s Resurrecting Jesus has helped me realize what has been going on with me lately. Once again She has come through and provided just the help I needed, right when I needed it: Adya’s interpretation of the Jesus story as an example of spiritual awakening.
When I first came across Adya’s concept of No-Self, I thought, “Why bother?” Practically everyone else in the course was all, “Oh, No-Self is the highest level, I’ve got to get that!” and I’m like, “Who cares? This relationship with Her is wonderful and beautiful (Adya’s Transcendent Self). Why would anyone want to move past that?” No-Self, in Adya’s own words, is boring in comparison to the earlier, awakened state of Transcendent Self. Seems like most, if not all his students, were talking from ego (I want the best!), while I was talking from experience.
When I asked Adya about this—why anyone would want No-Self since they have to go through the Transcendent first (and the Transcendent is wonderful)—he said, “Yes, the Transcendent is where all the good stuff happens—the miracles, the magic, the intimate relationship with God—but for the No-Self state to appear, you’ve got to want the Truth more than you want anything else—including all the magic and miracles of the Transcendent level.”
I’m not sure I agree with him on that. I think the desire for Truth is important, but there is also—as in my case—an additional motivator.
In Adya’s book, Jesus was at the Transcendent Self from the time of his baptism (spiritual awakening) up until his “death” on the cross (“Why have You forsaken ME?”). He only attained the No-Self state (dropped the me-thing, Jesus-thing) after his resurrection.
The differences between Transcendent Jesus and No-Self Christ are profound. No-Self Christ had far less inner and outer conflict, far less self-concern, far less hardness. Hell, No-Self Christ may not have had any of that stuff. Even though Pre-No-Self Jesus had a deep and intimate relationship with the Divine, he still had his human “clunkiness.” He still had his me-thing.
It is the hardness—the clunkiness—that has started to get old in my life.
At the start of this journal, I mentioned my desire to be rid of this Wayne-thing that separates me from Her, but it is in comparing Transcendent Jesus with No-Self Christ that it has clarified the feel and the benefits of the No-Self state—making the state more real, more approachable, and thus more accessible.
In other words, as is common in this Transcendent Self stage, this information is just what I needed, just when I needed it.
And I’m grateful for that.