The I LOVE Practice

The Easily Overlooked

The Easily Overlooked

MONICA SPRING, NM — #Technique #Radiance #Remember #VanDwelling

April 26, 2015 10:50 AM

The owls call to each other as the sun rises. The wind picks up and the sound, like a truck rumbling on a dirt road, causes me to look out the window expectantly for a ranger. But no, it is just the wind.

Far from civilization, I’ve not seen another soul for two days and the grip of human interaction eases as the connection with Nature—with God Herself—becomes more intimate and spontaneous. … Read more…

The Felt Sense Of Self

Dry Grass in the Morning Light

Dry Grass in the Morning Light

JOE SKEEN CAMPGROUND, NM — #Emptiness #Encounters #Radiance #Writing

April 21, 2015 7:25 AM

This spot isn’t going to do it. Not that there’s anything wrong with it—it’s a free, developed campground with a decent Signal—but it just doesn’t feel right for writing. Am I procrastinating again? I dunno, but I think I’ll move on.

From the Vastness, there is no center to “You.” There is a point where everything is seen from, but the sense of self seems to be missing, it’s expanded to infinity so there seems to be no felt centuralized location for it. … Read more…

The Implications of Unconditional Love

Where the Seeds, Unknown, were Planted.

Where the Seeds, Unknown, were Planted.


April 15, 2015 4:29 PM

Ahead, a large farm tractor, chugging along at 30 mph, created a four car backup on a long and lonely road in these desolate Bardo lands. “Why doesn’t he pull over?” my mind asked in frustration.

I LOVE X, but crappy stuff.

I LOVE my freedom, but that damn tractor won’t pull over.

I LOVE… (Love felt flowing toward the image of) freedom.

And suddenly I was no longer frustrated. Suddenly the mind was quiet. Suddenly I loved everything that my eyes saw. My eyes touched and caressed everything they fell upon.

Suddenly, I was no longer in the mind, but in the MOMENT.

Based on some of the comments yesterday, I’d say there were more than a few readers who understood why I awoke with tears of gratitude before writing that post. They see the significance of it, the implications of recognizing the felt nature of our core being: I LOVE (flowing outward).

The implications are simply this:

If you are NOT feeling I LOVE (pure Love flowing outward), then you are caught up in the mind.

When you pull away all the crappy stuff (the tractor), when you pull away even the object of your love (freedom), then you become the flowing, dynamic motion of Love Itself.

This could be a game changer (for my message).

Why? Because when you are NOT in the mind, then you are in the MOMENT.

And when you are in the MOMENT, then you are AWAKE.


How To Overcome Any Negative Emotion

The Loneliness of the Bardo

The Loneliness of the Bardo

OUTSIDE DODGE CITY, KS — #MiracleLog #MyLove #Radiance #Remember #Technique

April 14, 2015 7:48 AM

I had tried every technique that I had offered to others: See the loneliness as “other,” as not-you; See the loneliness like a cloud that coats you; See the loneliness as something negative and how sucky it makes you feel and drop it because you don’t need it anymore.

And yet, I went to bed still feeling lonely.

How can I help others—authentically help them—if I can’t help myself?

I fell asleep, and in my sleep She came to me and lay with me and she whispered sweet Truths through the long, dark night and when I awoke, I washed the tears of gratitude from my face and I wrote…


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On Apathy And Inner Peace

The Cafe Counter

The Cafe Counter

MELBOURNE, FL#Remember #Technique #Soul #Radiance

March 7, 2015 9:27 AM

At the cafe counter of the local Barnes and Noble, five strangers converged at the empty order register at the exact same instant. The barista, with her back to us while she rinsed off some dishes, jumped in shock when she saw the crowd which had mysteriously appeared out of nowhere. Without a word, we all smiled.

I’m conflicted.

On the one hand, what I’ve been contemplating lately could lead directly to inner peace.

On the other hand, it could lead to apathy.

Screw it, I’ll practice it for a bit and see what I find. All my readers are big boys and girls, they’re old enough to deal with the implications on their own:

If you truly live as a Soul, then this life is no more real than a dream.

Why? From my previous post, To Thrive:

Reincarnation implies that our current (seemingly all-important) life will soon feel like a dream.

All the evidence suggests that we are disincarnate, intelligent (but confused) entities currently driving around temporary bodies in a temporary physical world and that we will take on new bodies/worlds again and again and again. This experience is almost exactly like a dream: We participate in a dream. We consider it real. We wake up and realize the “real” reality. Then we fall back asleep and do it all over again.

Oddly enough, the inner peace that this perspective generates is the main attraction—the main benefit—of enlightenment. Indeed this Soul-perspective coincides with what the Buddha hinted at when he said, “Life is like a dream.”

Inner peace via a higher vantage point.

I’m going to practice this for a few days. To strive to keep this perspective—that all this is but a dream that I will soon wake up from—and see how it affects me.

My conflict? Without Love—without Radiancethis insight could very easily lead to apathy. I’ve already started to notice this apathy—this “it’s just a dream inner-peace defense”— when the emotions well up when hearing about ISIS atrocities, broadcast “news” exaggerations fill the airwaves, and my “distancing reactions” to differences of opinions.

Still, when you combine this insight with Love—that what I am experiencing right now is a shared dream by all of us-as-Souls—man, then it is so beautiful it’s heartbreaking.

Right now, I’m not sure how to resolve the conflict—the conflict of apathy and inner peace. Maybe with practice…

The Shadow and the Light

A Door and a Window.

A Door and a Window.

MELBOURNE, FL — #Radiance #Technique

February 10, 2015 8:41 AM

Michelle—who has been wrestling with her shadow—”leveled up” the other day with a powerful opening.

It’s rewarding to see such simple advice help someone so profoundly:

Treat them, these angry entities, as your children and Love them. They are not YOU, they are part of your burka.

Obviously it wasn’t just my advice—as you can see from Michelle’s post she’s very good about “polling” multiple sources and gathering evidence to satisfy the naturally doubting mind—but it’s still rewarding to be a part of it nonetheless.

Even though she was working with her shadow, she has found what lies below the shadow—found not just rationally but experientially.

She has found that at her core, she is Love (Radiance).

Helping others like this is what I live for. I want to find a way to do this more often, but somehow and someway to still fit in with my drifter lifestyle. I looked into apps like Meetup, etc., but those felt too forced… too “me-centric.”

I can wait though. I’m good at waiting.

The Little Way

Dawn Sky

Dawn Sky

MELBOURNE, FL — #Radiance #Writing

February 4, 2015 1:38 PM

I’ve started reading The Story Of A Soul: The Autobiography Of St. Therese Of LisieuxI particularly like the following (taken from Wikipedia, emphasis mine):

I will seek out a means of getting to Heaven by a little way—very short and very straight, a little way that is wholly new. We live in an age of inventions; nowadays the rich need not trouble to climb the stairs, they have lifts instead. Well, I mean to try and find a lift by which I may be raised unto God, for I am too tiny to climb the steep stairway of perfection. … Thine Arms, then, O Jesus, are the lift which must raise me up even unto Heaven. To get there I need not grow; on the contrary, I must remain little, I must become still less.

St. Therese—who apparently was a tiny little thing—called this her “Little Way.” From my understanding, she was kind of a rebellious nun—not one to spend her hours studying ancient, complex religious tomes, and more likely to follow her heart and pursue a simpler, more direct route to God. Her line—To get there I need not grow; on the contrary, I must remain little, I must become still less—fits in perfectly with what I’ve been saying for years:

The less there is of you, the more there is of Her.

I think I’m in love.

1:58 PM

As I mentioned yesterday, my latest book—The Path of Mystical Oneness—is too clunky, so I spent the morning re-organizing it. Not only do I want to change the tone from a less lecturing one to a more intimate one, but I’ve decided to break the book down into a series of smaller ebooks (MinEbooks).

Why? One word: FlowIf my life isn’t flowing—if I find myself trying or enduring—then I know I’m doing something wrong.

By breaking the one big book into five (possibly more) smaller books, I drastically shorten the time spent on each of the following steps (alleviating burn-out):

  • Outline (Strategic/Logical Energy)
  • Write (Tactical/Creative Energy)
  • Generate (Cannon Fodder/Mindless Energy)

An added bonus is the MinEbook method allows for more rest periods after each cycle: Outline, Write, Generate, Rest, Repeat….

Interestingly enough (to me at least), is this method fits in well with St. Therese’s Little Way. Same amount of work (maybe even more) but smaller, simpler, and easier to digest pieces.

The (very) tentative titles:

  1. Mystical Oneness: The Core Teachings
  2. Mystical Oneness: The Eternal
  3. Mystical Oneness: The Radiant
  4. Mystical Oneness: The Empty
  5. Mystical Oneness: The Lived


Uncharted Waters

Uncharted Waters

MELBOURNE, FL — #FourthWall #Emptiness #NoSelf #Radiance #Surrender

January 29, 2015 8:11 AM

From some of his comments and assertive emails, I had expected him to be a Fundamental Nondualist—a man who rationalized “enlightenment” and was determined to point out all the errors of my ways—but I was pleasantly surprised when we met up at a local Panera Bread and Dave began relating events from his past—one synchronistic event after another—and arriving at the same conclusion that I had: that synchronicity implies God.

Dave is more stable, more advanced in the Emptiness quality than I—the vastness taking center-stage in his awareness. He reminded me of the mysterious Jed McKenna with his rational, determined approach. Even Dave’s methodology is similar to McKenna’s: to throw yourself into understanding something—to immerse yourself in it—until you arrive at its deepest core truth (“if A then B and B leads to C and C means …”).

Unlike McKenna though, Dave is far more humble. Full of yang, active, determined energy, yes, but he’s not stuck on himself as McKenna is. I suspect this is due more to Dave’s understanding of the Divine—of the implications of the Divine—than to his original, birth nature.

He said he had a message for me, apologetically though, as he knew how pompous that sounded, yet still feeling driven to tell me—to go out of his way to meet me and tell me. But I’m far more comfortable with these situations—-when the interests of the mind conflict with Her whispers—so I fully understood.

He got all serious and he told me his message—but after he told me, I promptly forgot it. This is a common quality of Shadow information—that the conscious mind rejects what it isn’t ready to hear—and because both he and Michelle and I have each been hit with Shadow material recently, I suspect there are layers within it that I’m not ready for.

I wrote him back this morning, asking him to restate it. His message, word-for-word:

Her vast unactualized knowing with no agenda and the world “because” of her, an entangled ball of light.

[Fourth Wall]: I suspect that this message isn’t just for me, so I present it above verbatim.

In a powerful vision he had (similar to mine a few months after my initial awakening), he related how—struggling with the new-found powers of almost miraculous manifestation (wish fulfillment) that comes from this level of development—he asked Her what She wanted from him and She laughed (at his arrogance?) and said, “I created you,” and kicked him “out of the womb.”

[Fourth Wall]: I struggled with this Messiah Complex too for a few months after awakening, subtly still do I suppose, but I expect everyone who gets to this level does—when whatever you wish for practically always and magically appears.

I take his message combined with his vision to mean (though I’m not sure I agree with it, but this is Dave’s story, so I’ll relate it) that She doesn’t need us to do Her bidding, that She is fully capable of handling things all on Her own thank-you very much, and maybe I (Wayne) need to re-examine my assumption that there is an express purpose for me (from his comments above of no agenda and being laughed at).

Dave doesn’t blog because he say’s he has a hard time articulating his thoughts and experiences. Because there was so much to relate in so little time (he knows everything about me, but I knew next to nothing about him), he dumped a lot of information on me and I could very well be completely wrong on his point.

Oddly enough, what I did hear loud and clear, was a recurring theme of trust. Trust that She’s got the back of anyone who is willing to surrender to Her. Trust that, though we may never fully understand Her will or intentions, that She’s got our best long term interests at heart as long as we’re willing to get out of Her way (surrender control).

Not surprisingly, as I was composing this post, I received another email from Dave:

I feel if you believe you may suffer in some future circumstance that may well come to pass. If you Trust that you won’t you won’t. You will never be able to let go of that pole if you don’t trust.

[Fourth Wall]: The pole he was referring to was from my vision: Where I held onto a vertical pole (like a fireman’s sliding pole) as I stepped into a column of Light (Her). My entire body was vaporized completely—all but the hand that tightly gripped the pole. I have long regretted that I was too afraid to let go and dissolve fully and absolutely into Her… and that I have never had the opportunity to be “tested” again since then.

As it was getting time to depart, and as it had happened with ErikI/She/We gave Dave some unsolicited advice: To open his heart more, not to explain himself (as the rational is wont to do), but to love others through actions. (The focus on Emptiness bypasses many of the joys of Radiance, and without Love—Love manifest in the world—what’s the point of all this wisdom?) I/She/We could feel his resistance and I (the Wayne-thing) felt uncomfortable with offering it, but Dave sent the following email later in the evening:

Yep. Great insight. I have been very guarded with the love. I knew that and am careful with it because I cry whenever I go there. Almost a sadness.

For the lack of love in the world and when I see it, I miss it and I cry. Not that I am not loved, I have much support in my life, but love itself. I am going to open up a bit and see if I can go there without walking around with a box of tissues. Thanks.

[Fourth Wall]: Before you go thinking Dave’s some wussy milquetoast, he’s an ex-merchant marine with a tough sounding Massachusetts accent.

And then this email, which I found far more rewarding (his wife is not in to this stuff):

Wife came home and sat beside me.

First words out of her mouth, “You seem different.” So out of character for her to say that. I will roll with it.

As I said, Dave’s more advanced than I am in the Emptiness quality—but in Radiance? Not a chance.

At least, not yet. 🙂