The Little Way

Dawn Sky

Dawn Sky

MELBOURNE, FL — #Radiance #Writing

February 4, 2015 1:38 PM

I’ve started reading The Story Of A Soul: The Autobiography Of St. Therese Of LisieuxI particularly like the following (taken from Wikipedia, emphasis mine):

I will seek out a means of getting to Heaven by a little way—very short and very straight, a little way that is wholly new. We live in an age of inventions; nowadays the rich need not trouble to climb the stairs, they have lifts instead. Well, I mean to try and find a lift by which I may be raised unto God, for I am too tiny to climb the steep stairway of perfection. … Thine Arms, then, O Jesus, are the lift which must raise me up even unto Heaven. To get there I need not grow; on the contrary, I must remain little, I must become still less.

St. Therese—who apparently was a tiny little thing—called this her “Little Way.” From my understanding, she was kind of a rebellious nun—not one to spend her hours studying ancient, complex religious tomes, and more likely to follow her heart and pursue a simpler, more direct route to God. Her line—To get there I need not grow; on the contrary, I must remain little, I must become still less—fits in perfectly with what I’ve been saying for years:

The less there is of you, the more there is of Her.

I think I’m in love.

1:58 PM

As I mentioned yesterday, my latest book—The Path of Mystical Oneness—is too clunky, so I spent the morning re-organizing it. Not only do I want to change the tone from a less lecturing one to a more intimate one, but I’ve decided to break the book down into a series of smaller ebooks (MinEbooks).

Why? One word: FlowIf my life isn’t flowing—if I find myself trying or enduring—then I know I’m doing something wrong.

By breaking the one big book into five (possibly more) smaller books, I drastically shorten the time spent on each of the following steps (alleviating burn-out):

  • Outline (Strategic/Logical Energy)
  • Write (Tactical/Creative Energy)
  • Generate (Cannon Fodder/Mindless Energy)

An added bonus is the MinEbook method allows for more rest periods after each cycle: Outline, Write, Generate, Rest, Repeat….

Interestingly enough (to me at least), is this method fits in well with St. Therese’s Little Way. Same amount of work (maybe even more) but smaller, simpler, and easier to digest pieces.

The (very) tentative titles:

  1. Mystical Oneness: The Core Teachings
  2. Mystical Oneness: The Eternal
  3. Mystical Oneness: The Radiant
  4. Mystical Oneness: The Empty
  5. Mystical Oneness: The Lived

Head to Heart

That's Not The Future Out There.

That’s Not The Future Out There.

MELBOURNE, FL — #Death #Writing

February 3, 2015 12:54 PM

The book… it’s too clunky. Too much head, and not enough heart.

Time to harmonize its nature.

I’m sick of theories.

It’s time for the tide to change.

3:57 PM

Saw the movie Birdman. All about meaning and existential angst. Good movie. Funny, but dark.

The sense of self. Self-absorption. The mind turned inward. Even Michael Keaton gets it.

Change of subject, sort of: I’ve been getting a few comments and a bunch of emails on this Gas Gauge of Death thing lately. No matter how many times I explain it, they just don’t seem to get it.

Reality is right here, right now. Everything else is just noise in the mind.

I doubt I’ll address this issue anymore. I’m so tired of the drama. So tired of their fears. So tired of explaining myself.

The Present = Reality.

The Ominous Future = A whirling illusion in the mind.

Why should I feed the illusion?

Hardware and Software

A Good Morning For Writing

A Good Morning For Writing

MELBOURNE, FL#Writing #FourthWall #Soul

January 24, 2015 11:16 AM

I spent the morning working on the book, mainly just re-arranging topics and organizing my thoughts. Since I'm an atomic kind of guy, what I do is put each topic in its own sheet (Ulysses' term for a document), and add a bunch of comments/thoughts at the top of each sheet. These comments show in the summary view of the manuscript, so I can see both an overview and the details all at once.

I had dropped my laptop off at the Apple store in Orlando a couple days ago. They are replacing the entire screen and, as an unexpected bonus, are even throwing in a new the battery. The battery replacement alone probably paid for the extended warranty. I should have the laptop back in a couple days.

In the mean time, I've been using the Keyboard/iPad/Ulysses combination and it has been working surprisingly well. Even though Ulysses on the iPad is a beta version, it is rock solid, and in combination with the bluetooth keyboard, it's able to handle all my writing needs.

Note: I returned my original keyboard because it broke at the hinge. I'm now using a "folio" type keyboard (no mechanical hinge) and it seems to be much more robust.

January 24, 2015 3:34 PM

I'm finishing up Evidence of the Afterlife and I find it fascinating how similar the post-life experiences of NDE'ers are to the mystical qualities of the awakened state: miraculous healings, psychic abilities, profound selfless love, loss of the fear of death, …. I haven't thought it through, but near death experiences seem to support the fading aspects of Mystical Oneness: that the less there is of you (and when you die, there is certainly less of you), the more there is of the Divine.

There isn't any mention of synchronistic luck, but as far all the other "magical" traits, it is almost shocking how similar the experiences are.

[Fourth Wall]: I encourage anyone who would like to lose the fear of death—who would like to "live as a Soul"—to read this book.


Ulysses + iPad + Keyboard

Ulysses + iPad + Keyboard


January 16, 2015 2:15 PM

Focus. How do you keep the mind focused on what you want, and not what the mind wants? To focus on the Light and not on the distractions?

A lot of fundamental nondualist say the enlightened remain in “abiding nondual awareness” 100% of the time. Are these people saying that once you hit their version of enlightenment that their mind—their focus—magically comes under their complete and absolute control?

I sure would like to see their online journals. I sure would like to see some transparency in their claims.

January 16, 2015 2:25 PM

I’m typing this on my iPad using an external keyboard and Ulysses’ (beta) iPad app. I need to send my laptop in for a new screen (the anti-glare coating is screwed up, making editing photos kind of hit or miss) and I’ve been dreading the possible two week down time, even contemplating buying a new computer and using the old one as a back up. This morning though, I had the brilliant idea of getting an external keyboard for my iPad and seeing if I could survive with that. Since I’m no longer programming, I might be able to get away with this option.

What I think I’ll do is try to survive in iPad-only mode through the weekend, and if I can, then I’ll take the laptop to Best Buy for repairs (there’s no Apple store nearby).

The Great Motivator

Writing In Ulysses

Writing In Ulysses

MELBOURNE, FL — #Death #Writing

January 15, 2015 2:28 PM

I wish I could find some practice that would make death real for others. Recognizing you’ll be dead soon is a great motivator.

What if you were 90% certain you’d be dead in two years. What would you do differently?

One of the results of that thought is motivating me to write—I want to get Mystical Oneness done before I die.

So this morning, I worked on the new book, and in doing so, found myself changing the layout of the folders in Ulysses to make it easier to outline, organize and write.

I created three levels of folders/documents:

  • Level 1 (folder) is for the Parts of the book (Part I: What Is Mystical Oneness, Part II: The Eternal Quality, Part III: The Radiant Quality, …)
  • Level 2 (subfolder) is for the Chapters inside the Parts
  • Level 3 (individual documents) is for the Topics inside the Chapters

I’m putting each topic in a separate document (called a sheet in Ulysses). This allows me to easily set a word count goal (around 500 words) per topic and helps to keep things short and sweet since I sometimes tend to run on and on.

Short and sweet not only makes it easier for the reader to digest and understand the topics, but it makes it a hell of a lot easier for me to stay on track and write about them.

The Muse Stirs

Water Just Waiting To Flow

Water Just Waiting To Flow

MELBOURNE, FL — #Writing

January 13, 2015 3:09 PM

Though I had intended to write my willliving will, and whole body donation documents this morning, I felt my muse stir, surrendered to her, and worked on the book instead.

I moved the Introduction to the So Just What Is Mystical Oneness? section, tweaked it a bit, and wrote the following first draft for the front matter:

A Note To Readers

I am a Mystic, but I am a rational Mystic. I know exactly how unbelievable my life has been. If I were to stumble upon a biography of someone who had lived a similar life, even I would have trouble believing it.

Fortunately I have been blogging for over a decade—keeping an online journal where I recorded events and insights largely in real-time (often within hours).

As of this writing, I am the only person I know who has documented their life in a continuous, online stream before, during and after their awakening.

Though this is a book about Mystical Oneness, by necessity it is also a book about the author.

In reading this work—particularly the passages on my personal life—I know you’ll experience some doubts about the authenticity of some of these events. When you do, please refer to for all the evidence your mind may require. I understand completely—evidence and transparency are everything to me. In your shoes, I’d do the same.

I may be a Mystic—a man who believes in what most people would find unbelievable—but at least I’m a rational one.


In the summer of 2009, only a few months before my money was due to run out—only a few months before I intended to kill myself—I awoke to what many call enlightenment.

My personal self was seen through and dropped. My identity shifted from the noise in my mind to the Witness of the All. I realized what every enlightened person knows—what I had sought for over three decades—that the “I” is nothing more than a series of thoughts and memories. That the personal self is nothing but a bunch of mental noise.

I was awake.

Days later, my mind was mysteriously filled with an overwhelming amount of profound knowledge and wisdom, much in the manner as, in his book Resurrecting Jesus, Adyashanti would write about, “After a while a download of insight began— literally hundreds of insights per second downloaded into my system.”

I was so taken by these insights that I didn’t think to question where the insights came from.

And then the synchronicities began—the mysterious and odds-defying good luck.

Through no effort on my part, a longterm freelancing contract fell into my lap. I was so grateful for the work and income, that I never considered how odds defying the coincidence was—money simply arrived just when I needed it.

A woman offered to buy the RV I was living in—an RV I was considering (but dreading the headache of) selling. Old, used, RV’s are notoriously difficult to sell, yet she approached me and paid me well.

Needing a place to stay, a friend offered me her vacant condo in exchange for some maintenance work—even though I hadn’t asked.

Life mysteriously and continually lined up. It seemed I only needed to wish it, and it was made so.

Synchronicity—meaningful and beneficial coincidences—became the norm in my life.

But I was so taken by this wonderful and mysterious good luck—these ongoing synchronistic events—that I completely missed a key point: How could they possibly be happening so consistently?

Suddenly the honeymoon was over and for practically all of 2010, nothing seemed to go my way. A friend and reader of my blog told me that I seemed to be living the life of Job.

Soon a pattern slowly revealed itself: When I tried, I failed. When I surrendered, I succeeded.

As this pattern became clear, as this mystery took on the quality of truth—not through belief, but through repeated experiences—I was forced to face a profound and life-altering insight: Synchronicity implies God.

It was at that moment that I became a Mystic. With this realization—acknowledging that my ongoing odds-defying luck was real and repeatable—that I recognized that there was an all-knowing, all-powerful Intelligence behind everything; an Intelligence who loved and cared and could, if I only allowed Her, become an integral and beloved part of my life.

It was in that moment that I dropped my attachment to the dry and dusty rationality of traditional enlightenment; I saw through the paradox of the two truths of unity and separation; and this former atheist—a man of logic and mind and theories—looked into the eyes of God… and was humbled.

Over the years that followed—though I would often slip into compulsive trying (and suffer the now expected consequences)—I practiced surrendering my will and opening my soul and allowing the Divine to have Her way with me; for it was only in moments of surrender (and never in the conditioned trying) that Life would line up and effortlessly flow and the I-that-was-me would dissolve and become one with my Beloved.

To dissolve into the Divine, to surrender the self, to feel the love and the magic and the beauty of the absolutely ordinary, this is what it means to be a Mystic. This is what it is like to live in Mystical Oneness.

Flowing Again

Wilson. My Driver's Seat Headrest.

Wilson. My Driver’s Seat Headrest.

MELBOURNE, FL — #MiracleLog #Writing

January 10, 2015 1:50 PM

Things are once again flowing smoothly: Waiting lines vanish, traffic clears and parking spaces are once more opening before me. When I want something, it appears. When I’ve got a question, the answer is whispered. What I shop for is effortlessly found, people are helpful and women are flirty. It’s good to be back on track—good to be back in the Flow.

Maybe it’s because I’m clear on the new book, that I’ll take my bruises from the NonAbusers project and apply them to it: I won’t get too attached to its success. I won’t put a lot of time or effort into its writing. I’ll make it short and concise, and when the writing’s not flowing, I simply won’t work on it.

I’m hoping to think of the book more like a living thing rather than a dry project. A life form that wants to be revealed—not a book that needs to be written.


Down By The River

Down By The River

MELBOURNE, FL — #Writing #VanDwelling #MiracleLog #FourthWall

01/08/2015 9:24 PM

Because I didn’t listen to Her, the first part of my morning was clunky—one gas station wouldn’t process my credit card, another gas station’s pump kept auto-shutting-off on me, I had to wait in line to place my breakfast order, a woman was mysteriously standing in my way at the coffee urns…—you know, clunky like most people’s lives normally are.

Last night I had a lot of aches and pains in my neck and shoulders. This morning, I realized this was exactly how Mom had felt last week when she had been to the dentist for her first root canal visit, and, since she had gone for her second visit yesterday, my mind said that maybe she was experiencing the same pain, but TaoGodHer whispered, “You’ve got the pain now, your mom’s fine.”

I opted to listened to my mind though, and stopped in at the condo (I don’t sleep in the condo, but stealth camp around town) and Mom was indeed fine but, because of my lack of faith (I’m certain), my morning didn’t flow as smoothly and effortlessly as it typically does.

12:32 PM

I went to the coffee shop to work on my book-in-progress (still haven’t settled on a title), and moved my outline and notes from OneNote into Ulysses’ folder structure as recommended in Hewson’s Writing A Novel With Ulysses III. By using Ulysses’ comments feature to summarize what each chapter/section should be about, OneNote became superfluous. Keeping all my notes and text in a single application simplified things dramatically.

[ Addressing the Forth Wall]: No. I don’t make a referral fee from Ulysses. It’s just a great product.

Here’s the first draft of the Introduction (I just wrote it a few minutes ago, so it—like this morning—is pretty clunky):


Ask any spiritual seeker if they’ve become either more or less “lucky” the more spiritual they’ve become, and almost universally—at least after a confused pause of consideration—they’ll respond in the positive: “More lucky.”

Often this insight will surprise them.

The more spiritual we become, the more lucky we become.

Mystical Oneness is like traditional nondual enlightenment with constant and consistent good luck thrown in.

The biggest difference between the Mystic and the Enlightened is that the Mystic recognizes just how lucky she has become. Furthermore, the Mystic realizes why she has become so lucky. The Mystic realizes that ongoing odds-defying luck (synchronicity) implies a Divine Intelligence.

To put it a more precisely, the Mystic understands…

Synchronicity implies God.

Now we’re not talking about the God of the Bible, Torah, or Koran. No. We’re talking about an all-powerful, all-knowing Intelligence who actively participates in the Mystic’s day-to-day life.

Ongoing, odds-defying, and meaningful good luck implies that an all-powerful, all-knowing Intelligence is operating behind the scenes. The Mystic—a man or woman who has taken their spirituality so deeply and seriously that there is almost nothing left of them—recognizes this. They recognize there is no other explanation for it.

They recognize that synchronicity implies God.

Fundamental nondualists (so called “enlightened” rationalists) would say Mystical Oneness is a flawed concept because Mystical Oneness implies a person (the Mystic) separate from God, and all separation is an illusion. But the Mystic knows there is more to life than just rational concepts and theories. The Mystic has transcended the rational (ironically, dualistic) concepts of separation and unity. The Mystic lives and thrives between these two truths. The Mystic lives in paradox.

Mystical Oneness is like an intimate relationship. Just like the relationship between two intimate lovers—where one is almost constantly thinking and involved with the other—Mystical Oneness is the intimate union of the devote spiritual seeker with the Divine Beloved.

Mystical Oneness is like traditional nondual enlightenment with a lot more heart and soul and love and magic.

Yeah, I know. Clunky.

01/04/2015: 2014 Fall Edition of A Mystic’s Journal


The Book Cover

The Book Cover

MELBOURNE, FL — #Writing

9:00 AM

Well that was a lot easier than I expected. The first ebook of the series, A Mystic’s Journal: Fall 2014, is published and available through Amazon. In an amazing example of modern day publishing, it covers this blog right up until a couple days ago, December 31, 2014.

Amazon has two royalty programs, 70% and 35% (the amount of the cover price paid to the author), and while it makes sense to choose the 70% option to maximize profits, I took the lower 35% royalty option because it allows me to:

  • Sell it as cheaply as possible ($0.99 versus $2.99)
  • Give it away on Amazon during promotions
  • Provide it for free to Kindle Unlimited subscribers

Providing a tool for seekers/readers is more important to me than making money from it, so the lower profit/higher visibility option seems to make sense.

I’m thinking I may release future books in this series seasonally (Winter, Spring, Summer, Fall) rather than monthly. Seasons are more resonant with my mystical, nomadic, and Taoist nature, but—after thinking about this for a few minutes—monthly versions may be easier for the reader to digest. I guess I’ll wait for Her whispers.

A Mystic’s Journal—being a journal (raw, timely, personal, transparent)—is kind of an odd format for a book series, but hopefully some good reviews will help with its acceptance among spiritual seekers.

12/30/2014: Blog to Ebook Decisions

Retail Overload

Retail Overload

MELBOURNE, FL — #Writing #Journaling 

9:41 AM

I’m working on the various tasks needed to create an ebook of this journal. The plan is to consolidate and create an ebook for the previous month’s entries every month. At the end of next year (assuming I’m still doing this), I’ll consolidate all of 2015’s entries into a single collection. This being the first “month” (I’m including the partial November 2014 in this volume) there are a lot of tasks and decisions and unknowns involved…

  • Do I use the same cover image each month and just change the dates? (ie: A Mystic’s Journal: November 2014 – December 2014 )
  • Do I include the Introduction and About Me every month?
  • How much do I sell them for?
  • Do I sell them just on Amazon, or on the other providers also?
  • Do I create a printed version?

I have a couple reasons for creating these ebooks:

  • Ebooks are much easier to digest a large amount of content than websites are
  • Ebooks allow readers to highlight the text and add personal notes. This is particularly useful for spiritual seekers (example 1example 2).
  • Ebooks can be read at leisure
  • Ebooks are portable
  • Retailers help expose my work to new readers
  • When I die, the websites may die with me. The ebooks won’t.

Ultimately, I want this to be as painless a process as possible. I’m far more interested in creating content than I am in creating products. So with that in mind, I think a lot of the above decisions will be easier to make.

10:07 AM

Well that was easy. My decisions:

  • Cover: Use the same cover image for an entire year’s worth of ebooks, and just change the date. Not only does this save time and effort, it makes it immediately apparent which monthly ebooks belong to which year’s series.
  • Re-use the same Introduction and About Me (and any other front matter). By keeping these in a separate group/folder in Ulysses, they will be easy to insert into each ebook.
  • Sell them for about $1 if possible (need to research Amazon’s restrictions). I’m more interested in getting them out there than making money off them.
  • Sell the monthly versions only on Amazon. If/when I create yearly versions (12 ebooks consolidated into one), then I can sell those on B&N’s Nook and Apple’s iBooks.
  • Printed versions? Probably makes sense to wait for the yearly version as the price will need to be much higher and the complexity is much greater. Use Amazon’s CreateSpace (print on demand service) for this.

4:27 PM

I picked up six Hawaiian shirts for 18 bucks at the local Goodwill. Perfect condition too. Six for about half the price of a single shirt from a typical retail store—and supporting a good cause to boot. I figure if I’m going to be forced to wear a burka, I might as well embrace my Conch (Florida Keys) heritage.