June 17, 2015 7:06 AM
The Mystic’s Dilemma:
I know that everything is God. This means that I am a part of God. My mind knows this, but my heart feels separate from God because I love God (am separate from Him). My mind says, “Yes, I am God,” but my heart says, “No, I am separate from God.”
One of the reasons for starting this blog, The Mystic’s Journal, was to document my efforts and struggles with the oh-so-subtle self archetypes (self-concern, self-awareness, self-centeredness, …) which seem to be keeping me from completely merging with Her/God.
I’m scheduled to have a Skype call with Jerry Freeman in less than an hour, but he sent me one of his essays yesterday. A key paragraph contains The Answer to the Mystic’s Dilemma (a dilemma I wasn’t consciously aware of until I read his essay):
In Brahman consciousness, there is still some residue of mental projection, illusion, dreaminess. This is necessary so universal, infinite Self can do that impossible thing of seeing from here, through these eyes, my eyes, me. There has to be enough illusion of separateness to maintain that sense of a little “me” who is in this place, here.
— Jerry Freeman
“There has to be enough illusion of separateness to maintain that sense of a little “me” who is in this place, here.” In other words: Separation is required for the Mystic to be aware of God. Without Separation, there would be no World, there would be no Universe, there would be nothing because Awareness (God/Tao/Her) requires Something to be aware of.
The Mystic can never permanently merge with God because without Separation, there can be no Existence, there can be no Relationship… there can be no Mystic loved and in love with God.
I haven’t integrated this insight/wisdom yet—I’m still digesting the implications of it—but this is a game changer for me.
[WGW: I’ve just finished the Skype call with Jerry and there’s much more to relate, but I wanted to share this Mystic’s Dilemma insight “as-is” in keeping with the “this is a diary, not a book and I’m stumbling around as I go” motif.]
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